December 11th, 2001

Lotus
  • acme

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I'm having trouble finding a way to come out to some of my friends. My friends from school know, because once I'd told a couple really close to me, I let people tell each other. I guess that's gutless really, letting someone else do the dirty work in a way.

But my problem lies in how to tell the friends I've known for years, and who don't know I'm gay. I want them to know, and I know they won't have a problem with it at all. I just don't know how to bring it up, and don't know what to say. I feel like they might think I've been deceiving them until now. I guess, in my defence, I've never denied it, I've never been directly asked by them. I've just failed to bring it up. A couple of these people I kind of drifted away from for a few years, so we didn't talk for a while, so they didn't really know me well when I was actually coming to terms with being gay. But I suppose that doesn't make much of a difference really, as I didn't tell anybody until I'd been thinking about it for a long time.

I'm having similar trouble telling my parents. I think my dad knows, but I haven't spoken to either of my parents about it. I should consider myself lucky, I know they won't react negatively to it (they're not homophobic at all). I guess I don't know really, but they have no reason to react badly. The main problem with telling them is that I just don't feel comfortable. I don't really talk to them much, and I don't think I'm ready to talk to them about something so personally meaningful to me in this way.

But with my friends, I feel a need to tell them. I want to, and I want to now, I'm just having trouble.

I want an easy way out (haha, no pun intended), and I know there's not one. I'm really just wondering if anyone here has any tips or advice on how/when/what to say etc?? Anything would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks :)